Dane Cook + The Flaming Lips= Best Ending to My Day

So tonight I watched all of Jay Leno because Dane Cook (my all time favorite comedian) and The Flaming Lips were on. Best Jay Leno I've seen in forever. It's been awhile since I've seen Dance Cook on TV and he's still just as hilarious as ever. He was talking about his documentary coming to HBO on June 11th called Transorgasmic. It's supposed to be about life on the road as a comedian, sounded interesting.

I think tonight I finally realized how much more hard-core conservative my mom is compared to me. First of all, she was bitching about The Flaming Lips and how she couldn't understand what the lead singer was singing (granted he was singing in a bull horn). Now mind you, my mom is only 41 so she wasn't saying that because she's old. See, she listens to country music, the area of music I refuse to touch. HATE IT, HATE IT! Then as The Flaming Lips were done she was trying to convince me that by the time I was 40 I would have 5 kids too and would be listening to country as well. HELL NO! First of all, I don't think I will even be done with school until I am 27 and then on top of getting married and getting my career going......totally not going to happen. I don't think I want 5 kids.....I don't want to end up being those stereotype Catholic families that has a shit ton of kids and no money and there for no style and all the kids wear hand-me-downs. Granted, that's not my family at all and in my career field I'd be able to afford new clothes for all of my kids that's beside the point. I can stand kids but in small quantities. I'm thinking about 2-3 kids. I don't know, it all depends on the type of guy I marry and how committed he is to helping out. Unlike the day-to-day example my step-dad leads. But that's neither here nor there.

Yay, for a 4-day weekend. The best part about working for the military is when they have a down day, you also have a down day because you can't be in the office by yourself. Therefore, tomorrow I'm getting 8 hours worth of pay and I will be at home doing whatever the hell I feel like. Deliciousness! For feeling like I didn't have much to update I seemed to have plenty. Leave me some love.

Don't Let Me Get Carried Away

Five days in Waco, TX is not something I would recommend. I went there for the Big 12 Championship Track and Field meet and the best part was taking pictures. I learned so much and just felt so much more experienced afterwards. I just can't wait to get some of my photos back, which probably won't be until around the time school starts. I'm hopeing to eventually turn this into a photo blog, but that also requires better photo equipment and actually exciting things to take pictures of.

Well I've been busy/tired/too lazy to update so I'm going to do as much as I can until I go to bed. I started working back at Offutt last Tuesday and I forgot how much I really enjoyed working there. One of the coolest parts was seeing all the other people come in and remember me from last year. It was a good feeling, made me feel like I wasn't a fly on the wall last year. But I've gotten back into running everyday (of the work week that is) and back into the swing of things in the office. Now I won't have to worry much about paying the tuition bill, which will be my brother's case because he didn't get a job back at Offutt. Let's just say he wasn't too warm and fuzzy about that.

I've been back and forth about saving up for camera gear. On one hand, I'd only be able to work on the weekends and since I work 40 hours a week those weekends are nice to have. But on the other hand, I'm usually bored on the weekends and end up sitting around at home. I guess I'll just see how things go when I really get into the swing of things. I could also apply at other places just for shits and giggles, and to see if anyone will hire me on the weekends. Maybe that'll just have to be a job I get during the school year and save up from there.

It's raining here and I love it. I love falling asleep to the rain and I love listening to it. There's something about it that makes me relax and calm. I guess that's something I need about now because I'm going through another panic about not having a roommate yet. I'm trying all options I know about and nothing has come up yet. Oh well, Jacob told me not to worry about it so much and just to pray about it. Seeing as how a lot of my prayers have gone unanswered, maybe something will go right for once. I guess I can't complain about my summer so far. It could always be worse. Leave me some love.

What's on TV

While browsing blogs during my nightly time online before I go to bed, I found one talking about the best TV show. I ended up posting a comment on what I thought were the best TV shows and honestly I picked cartoons I grew up with. Just a thought, where do you think you would be today if it wasn't for the things you learned on Sesame Street or the lessons you learned on Muppet Babies? I know I watched both of those shows religiously and I can't say where I would be today without those shows. Back when I was a kid they were simple shows with simple lessons. I try to watch what my 4 year old brother watches and I don't feel like I'm getting the same thing out of it. Granted, Thomas the Train has lessons to be learned.....it's not what keeps kids attention these days. That's sad, and depressing. Once again I'm feeling nostalgic for the old-time kids shows like Inspector Gadget, Eureka's Castle, Clarissa Explains It All (she explained a lot to be about being a semi-teenage girl), Salute Your Shorts, Hey Dude, and my personal favorite: Are You Afraid of the Dark.

Yes, I'll admit my childhood was based around shows on Nick, but that was the primo station to watch. I, in no way feel embarassed for the shows that I believe helped me be who I am today. I do however think that those shows need to be brought back. I think if I could watch the same shows now, I wonder if I would get the same message out of it. Hmmm, I guess I'll just have to wait for the DVD, if that day ever comes. But when it does, it'll be the happiest day of my life!

I'll Give You a Piece of Me

So finally had a damn epiphany....what's the point of trying to care about someone when you know they don't give a shit about you. It's taken me this long to figure it out. I don't care anymore. I've got awesome friends and a supportive family. I can't sit here and pretend like I still care, because in all honesty I don't. Because it seemed easier for me to think I did. The whole situation was brought about in a very shitty way and I feel like I'm the more mature person to not give in. Sure some days were hard, but people always find a reason to feel down when they are alone. And I always like an exucse for a good cry, it helps me get all the frustration out.

Two finals down with another final and a 5-page paper to go. Last night's studying session blew because I didn't want to study. I just hoped all the information would soak into my brain through osmosis, but apparently you need water for that. DAMMIT!! I keep looking around in my room, thinking about all the packing I STILL have to do and cuss and move on. I can't get myself to want to start. This is my last week in the dorms....ever. It's sad, and I hate packing. Summertime's creeping around the corner and I'm freaking out about my job. I haven't heard from Civilian Personnel and I want to start in a week. I miss my second family that consists of Navy men, it makes my job a lot more fun.

I promised myself I would write in here a lot more because I don't feel like it's as public as my xanga and myspace accounts are. Really, I'm just on there for my friends. I might post a link from facebook. Still contemplating that one. Those are my thoughts for the day. Maybe I'll get to studying......it's such a pain and yes, I will bitch about it because I can.